[11:47:13 AM] khaled mahfouz: hey sherri .. i cant explain to u in words how much am missing u and how much am sorry from u and from my own self for not being here for u lately .. but i can see that u already know about what is hapning here now days and that i shouldnt have hide from u at all .. but i swear that my reason why was not to make u worry sherri .. am gonna be honest wiz u .. even that i didnt mantion that before .. but from u i do feel that u realy care .. u realy feel somethin for me .. that this passion is truley from u aswell and not just from my side .. and dats why when this start i just couldnt say it to u and make u much more worry about me .. because that as i said to u before is not what u truley deserve .. even how bad and much i need u by my side .. but it's not ur fault or ur mistake to be going through this wiz me .. what u deserve is to be happy and take care off .. and i swear to god even how much i want u .. even how much i feel that i do needs u .. but if after knowing what is hapning here made u changed ur mind or made u feel not safe for being wiz me .. i swear to god i will consider it and i will never ever again ask u for comeing here being wiz me .. i swear i wont ever do if u feel that will be what is better for u .. i wasnt here lately because i had to do all what i told u that i had to wiz my family and thats plus being out there in tahrir .. helping ppl .. my ppl and standing with them against those mother fucker police and army .. i swear i cant explain in words how assholes criminals they are sherri .. u cant imagine or belive .. i can tell u an example wich happend yesterday .. yester day we made peace with them and we start praying after it .. and wihle we were playing they start shotting at us and also throughing gas bomb onus wihle we praying .. can u even belive that sherri .. can u even belive that they could do that to there own ppl with there own religion and blood .. i swear i just couldnt belive it .. am realy sorry for making u to hear that or to make u more worry .. but i mantioned to u that every time i am takeing what i feel inside of me and share it wiz u i do feel better .. and i know it selfish but am sorry .. when i readed in ur messages asking me if u are still my gurl .. i just said to u talking to my phone .. how u could even thought of somethin else .. wihle u are all and just what i want in this whole fuckin life .. but after that i start thinking that i might be doing nothing but making this life evn more harder for u wihle all this is hapning .. i just dont know what to do any more .. but i cant explain to u what u are for me and how badly i miss u sherri .. no words can ever tell u how sorry i feel for my own self from not being there for u and u to be around me .. this feeling of making us a part is killing me .. i swear it's killing me sherri .. i cant keep going in dis life wiz out u .. i swear i do feel it now .. i just cant .. and am sorry for even letting u hearing that but it's what i feel .. am so worried about u and feeling so hopless and useless from not being ur man .. from not being able to hold u and make u feel safe .. this feeling aswell it's making me chaking when i think of it .. i am praying evry day and night .. i swear every day and night just for this country wich is our country to be in the right way and to rise up again so i could be able to have u as soon as possiple and as it could be .. i miss u so bad sherri .. so bad that i can even explain in words how much i do.. am here for a bit before i go out for tahrir because today is a big day and we would sart with the voteing and i also have to pick up the medcine for granny .. am super man i guess
[11:47:44 AM] khaled mahfouz: missing u more than u can imagine .. i swear more than u can imagine or belive sherri i do miss u
[11:48:16 AM] khaled mahfouz: u are my babe and always will be .. my missin lovely angelic babe
[11:48:28 AM] khaled mahfouz: which i want and needs nothing else but her
[11:48:53 AM] khaled mahfouz: god i wish u could just put ur hand on my heart and listein to it's beats wihle it's beating while am writing, thinking , lookin at u
[11:49:14 AM] khaled mahfouz: i swear to god if u could just hear my heart beats wihle any of this is hapning u would know what every single word i say to u means sherri
[11:49:18 AM] khaled mahfouz: u just cant understand what u did and became for me
[11:49:29 AM] khaled mahfouz: i miss u so bad sherri
[11:49:30 AM] khaled mahfouz: so bad i swear
[11:49:35 AM] khaled mahfouz: i wanted to see u so bad before i would have to go
[11:49:42 AM] khaled mahfouz: babe please come here
[11:49:46 AM] khaled mahfouz: i miss u so bad i swear
[11:49:52 AM] khaled mahfouz: i miss all of u so bad
[11:49:57 AM] khaled mahfouz: babe
[11:50:09 AM] khaled mahfouz: miss that smile wich gives me that power to be able to keep going
[11:50:17 AM] khaled mahfouz: miss those lips wihle they are smileing
[11:50:36 AM] khaled mahfouz: needs to see that new look to not be loseing my mind of jealousy that others might have seen it
[11:50:47 AM] khaled mahfouz: babe am loseing my mind here and i swear to god is all because of u
[11:50:50 AM] khaled mahfouz: am sorry but it's
[11:50:52 AM] khaled mahfouz: babe
[11:50:56 AM] khaled mahfouz: godddddddddddddd i missed u so bad
[11:50:59 AM] khaled mahfouz: sherri
[11:52:55 AM] khaled mahfouz: why i have to be so unlucky and not being able to see the reason way i still want to be even breathing
[11:53:00 AM] khaled mahfouz: i missed u so bad sherri
[12:02:55 PM] khaled mahfouz: u dont know how much i needed u wiz me sherri
[12:22:19 PM] khaled mahfouz: u will always be in my thoughts and in deep of me
[12:33:44 PM] CHERYL MARIE: i, a;ways with you khaled
[12:36:35 PM] CHERYL MARIE: never will i leave i cant you are in my heart for life know that and i respect you for what you are doing i understand ite wrong of me to ask you not to cos i would bedoing the same if i had someone here that could get me out of jail if i went because it is something i started hard 10 months ago and havent stopped
[12:41:18 PM] CHERYL MARIE: im sorry i wasnt here for you baby i just woke see i havent slept much between januaery 25th and now. I dont sleep much at all during egypts uprising in January and now . Since then I made it my life to learn all i can about what is so wrong with my county and to fiind out why it does what it does to other countries and to stop it
[12:45:02 PM] CHERYL MARIE: No matter wjhat happend to me I had to let the people in the United States know what our government was doing to other countries and what they were doing to their own people. I hooked up with the peacx strategist to the UN and specoal envoy to the Arab Nations and made my wotds known over and over soon
[12:47:49 PM] CHERYL MARIE: i found groups againt the NWO and joined them to fight against them because as long as they stay in control of our government nothing will change it will only get worse. Believe me the things i saw and found out in the first week scared me to death i even stopped doing anything /. but i couldnt look away and not do anything
[12:50:16 PM] CHERYL MARIE: I was not going to be a slave to anyone and I was not going to let the people of the US go on sleeping thought many deserve to. So alot of people didnt believ me alot still lokk away but they can not not believe ne when now people are in the streets for that very reason. Many still look away
[12:53:27 PM] CHERYL MARIE: Since January 25th My life changed I not only see but I feel every cry of pain all over the world as I cried for egypt so i cried for lybia and syria . And am begging My country not to let the government star yet anothe lie of a war with Iran
[12:54:33 PM] CHERYL MARIE: That just can noy happen HUGE MISTAKE TH EBOMBS WILL FALL BACK INTO THIS COUNTRY I KNOW THIS.
[12:56:52 PM] CHERYL MARIE: I HOPE THEY REALIZE THAT AND WAKE UP AND LOOK BEFORE IT HAPPENS BECAUSE THESE NWO PEOPLE PROFIT FROM WAR OUR MILITARY KNOWS THIS AND THEY TOO ARE FIGHTINGAGAINST ANY WAR WITH IRAN THE WILL NO LONGER FIGHT UNJUST WARS
[1:00:05 PM] CHERYL MARIE: SOMEONE IN EGYPT SENT ME KHALED SAIDS FACEBOOK PAGE BACK IN JULY 2010 FOR A REASON I DONT KNOW WHO BUT THEY DID SO I GUESS YOU CAN SAY I WOKE THEN BUT NOT COMPLETELY UNTIL PPLE I LOVED IN EGYPT WERE IN A REVOLUTION THAT MY COUNTRY STARTED FOR THE REASON OF
[1:02:11 PM] CHERYL MARIE: BRINGING DOWN A COUNTRIES ECONOMY SO THES NWO PEOPLE WILL HAVE TO FIX IT WITH THEIR BLOOD MONEY AND TAKE OVER THEY DID IT WITH IRAQ AND AFGANISTAN THEIR AGENDA WITH EGYPT THEN LYBIA IS FOLLOWING THE PRESICE SET UP FOR WORLD TSAKE OVER
[1:02:37 PM] CHERYL MARIE: SYRIA YAMEN BAHRAIN ALL A PART OF THE MAP
[1:04:14 PM] CHERYL MARIE: THIS IS WHAT MAKE ME CRY THIS IS WHAT MAKES ME FIGHT EVEN IF IT GETS ME KILLED I DOBT CARE BUT I WILL HELP THE REST OF THE PEOPLE HERE FIGHTING AGAINST THEM I WILL NOT STOP AT ANY COST THE KILLING OF INNOCEN LIEVES MUST STOP
[1:07:08 PM] CHERYL MARIE: SO I WORRY FOR YOU BUT I RESPECT YOU IN THAT FIGHT AGINST TYRANNY IN YOUR COUNTRY. THE CITIZENS OF THE WORLD MUST JOIN AS ONE TO STAND FOR EVERY COUNTRY TOGETHER IT IS THE ONLY WAYIT WILL STOP . IT IS THE DIVINE PLAN OF GOD FOR WHEN WE JOIN AS ONE WE RETURN TO THE ONE WITH THE POWER OF GOD AND THE UNIVERSE WE CHANGE OUR WORLD. AND NOT UNTIL.
[1:08:52 PM] CHERYL MARIE: I LOVE YOU KHALED I RESPECT YOU PLEASE BECAREFUL AND GOD BE WITH YOU ALL.
[1:12:02 PM] CHERYL MARIE: MY HEART IS WITH YOU ALL THE WAY ONE NATIONS FREEDOM AND PEACE IS ONLY TEMPORARY IF ALL NATIONS ARE NOT FREE
[1:13:35 PM] CHERYL MARIE: I KNOW NOW WHY IRAN PRESIDENT SAID USA NEED FREEDOM I NEVER REALIZED JUST HOW NOT FREE WE ARE
[1:14:55 PM] CHERYL MARIE: THINGS HERE WILL GROW ALOT WORSE IF MORE PEOPLE DO NOT STOP LOOKING AWAY IT IS WHY I HAVE SUCH A STRONG FEELING OF LEAVING THIS COUNTRY AND SOON
[1:16:24 PM] CHERYL MARIE: AS EGYPR WAS THE BEGINNING OF ALL IT WILL BE AGAIN TRUST ME IT WILL RISE ANS THE US WILL FALL
[1:18:53 PM] CHERYL MARIE: I GUESS IT IS WHY I SPENT ALMOST 2 YEARS IN MY ROOM MAKING PEACE WITH MYSELF AND GOD AM READY TO AND I AM NOT AFAID TO DIE BUT I DO NOT WANT TO BE PART OF A COUNTRY THAT ALLOWS ITS GOVERNMENT TO DO WHAT IT WILL AT THE COST OF INNOCENT LIVES
[1:21:42 PM] CHERYL MARIE: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH KHALED AND NO I am not afraid to move to Egypt I was still going to go in march but my family begged me not to that was this year. and i still intend to go next this time i will not let my family stop me maybe it is why i never unpacked myshit to leave
[1:23:23 PM] CHERYL MARIE: my six bags of luggage are still pack sitting in my close though i will downsize on alot of it i am still ready to leave whenever i get the money to go i am gone
[1:26:04 PM] CHERYL MARIE: and egypt is my only desire in this world to be i dont know why but it is and it is very strong within me. I feel it is where god wants me to be for some reason, I dont question it I am only doing my best to achieve it
[1:28:03 PM] CHERYL MARIE: in july 2010 someone sent me khaled saids page for a reason now i know it was to wake up the world
[1:29:46 PM] CHERYL MARIE: THAT IS WHY I SAID TOYOU THE OTHER DAY I KNOW WHY I AM HERE. I KNOW IT IS TO AID IN HUMANITY I FOUND MY REASON WHEN I FOUND GOD AGAIN
[1:31:00 PM] CHERYL MARIE: AND DIDNT HAVE TO LOOK FOR GOD IN A BOOK OR IN A CHURCH I ONLY HAD TO LOOK WITHIN AND OPEN MY HEART FOR IT HAD BEEN CLOSED FOR SO VERY LONG
[1:33:06 PM] CHERYL MARIE: WHEB I WAS 5 YRS OLD I KNEW SOMETHING WAS WRONG WITH THIS WORLD AND I SAID THEN I WISH I COULD STAND ON A WORLD STAGE AND TELL EVERYONE STOP LOOK WHAT YOU ARE DOING TO EACHOTHER STOP THIS IS ALL WRONG I AM AGAIN THAT 5 YR OOLD GIRL FINISHING WHAT SHE WANTED THEN TO DO I AM NOW
[1:35:57 PM] CHERYL MARIE: I GOT LOST FOR SO MANY YRS BUT I WONT STOP UNTIL THE PEOPLE OF THE WORLD HAVE EVERYTHING THEY WERE SUPPOSE TO HAVE PEACE QUALITY AND FREEDOM. IT IS MY MISSION I STARTED WHEN I WAS LITTLE IT IS MY MISSION TODAY AND EVERYDAY UNTIL I DIE I WILL NOT GET LOST AGAIN I WILL NOT FORGET THOSE WORDS EVER AGAIN
[1:38:02 PM] CHERYL MARIE: IT IS WHY I CARE AND LOVE AND GIVE SO FREELY OF MYSELF IT IS WHAT I WAS BORN TO DO. IT IS WHY I NEVER FIT IN OR RAN WITH CROWDS SO THAT I NEVER FIT IN AND ALWAYS WOULD STAND OUT WHEN THE TIME CAME TO BE SEEN AND HEARD.
[1:38:21 PM] CHERYL MARIE: I WOULD BE
[1:39:15 PM] CHERYL MARIE: ALONG WITH MANY OTHER PEOPLE BORN TO DO THIS . I AM A PARYT OF EVERYONE OF THEM HERE TO HELP HUMANITY SURVIVE
[1:41:02 PM] CHERYL MARIE: THAT IS WHAT PEOPLE HAVE SEEN IN ME I NEVER SAW IN MYSELF THAT IS WHY ALL MY LIVE I HEARD THERES SOMETHING ABOUT CHERY I JUST NEVER KNEW WHAT IT WAS UNTIL NOW
[1:53:00 PM] CHERYL MARIE: GOD GAVE ME A LOVE THAT EVERYONE COULD FEEL AND SEE FOR A REASON I JUST NEVER SAW IT OR FELT IT COS I NEVER GAVE IT TO MYSELF
[1:54:42 PM] CHERYL MARIE: AND THE REASON IT NEVER STAYED WITH ANYONE AND ME TOGETHER IS BECAUSE UNTIL I LEARNED TO LOVE MYSELF NO ONE WOULD EVER STAY
[1:57:38 PM] CHERYL MARIE: SO HOPEFULLY I HAVE OVERCOME ALL THAT BECAUSE I DO LOVE MYSELF AND FORGIVE MYSELF FOR HATING WHAT I HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH WHICH WAS NOT MY FAULT AND TO LET IT GO AND TO STOP BEING AFRAID AND TO LEARN TO LIVE WITH MYSELF AGAIN AND FOR MYSELF BEFORE I CAN FOR ANYONE ELSE IT IS WHY HE HAS TAKEN MY ABILITIES TO HELP ANYONE. AND MAD IT SO I COULD BARELY EVEN HELP MYSELF
[2:00:15 PM] CHERYL MARIE: SEE I SPENT MY WHOLE LIFE LIVING FOR EVERYONE ELSE TO BE HAPPY AND IN RETURN CAUSED MYSEL ALOT OF PAIN NOW I CANT DO THAT I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF MYME RHERE IS NO MONEY FOR ME TO TAKE CARE OF ANYONE ELSE THE ONLY THING I HAVE LEFT TO GIVE IS MY LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP
[2:02:29 PM] CHERYL MARIE: ITS A HARD WAY TO LEARN A LESSON AND EVEN HARDER TO CHOKE DOWN WHEN YOU SEE THAT WHEN YOU HAVE NOTHING LEFT THOSE WHO WERE ANLY AROUND BECAUSE YOU HAD SOMETHING THEY WANTED AND NOT NEEDED . AND YOU LOOK AREOUND AND NO ONE IS THERE FOR YOU EXCEPT YOUR FAMILY
[2:04:18 PM] CHERYL MARIE: ZERO REAL PEEPS IN MY LIFE
[2:07:00 PM] CHERYL MARIE: BUT I WONT LET THEM BEAT ME WHAT DOESNT KILL ME IS ONLY MAKING ME STRONGER NOT BITTER AND ANGRY JUST STRONGER IM NOT GOING TO BECOME BITTER AND HATEFUL THEN THEY WIN SORRY THEY WILL ALWAYS LOSE
[2:09:06 PM] CHERYL MARIE: WE MET FOR A REASON KHALED THAT ONLY GOD KNOWS BUT IM AM WILLING TO FIND OUT WHAT THAT REASON WAS I CAN NOT DENY GODS PLANS
[2:09:55 PM] CHERYL MARIE: IF WITH YOU IN EGYPT IS WHERE I AM TO BE THEN IT WILL FALL INTO PLACE
[2:11:23 PM] CHERYL MARIE: ONCE AGAIN I LOVE YOU BABY BE VERY CAREFUL PLEASE DONT LET ANYTHING HAPPEN TO YOU IM WITH YOU ALL THE WAY
[2:12:20 PM] CHERYL MARIE: AND WHEN ALL THIS IS OVER WE WILL HAVE OUR TIME UNTILL THEN MY BLOGGER SPEAKS LOUDLY TO YOU
[2:13:44 PM] CHERYL MARIE: GREAT BIG KISSES AND HIGS IM HOLDING YOU HAND AND WHAT YOU FEEL FOR ME IN MY HEART
[2:15:25 PM] CHERYL MARIE: KEEP YOU MIND CLEAR OF DISTRATIONS ON ME FOCUS COS IF YOU ARE DISTRACTED YOU MAY NOT SEE SOMETHING AIMED IN YOUR DIRECTION PLEASE DKEEP YOUR MIND CLEAR I KNOW YOUR HEART IM HERE
[2:16:27 PM] CHERYL MARIE: NOW BACK TO YOUR MISSION MY YOUNG ACTIVIST I LOVE U
[2:17:42 PM] CHERYL MARIE: SEE YOU SOON BABY :*
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